ACROSS THE MILES

I have been tagged by Karmic Jay ..really don't know what to write, just too much about me.I will try to make it short so as not to bore you.

I AM THINKING ABOUT: What I am going to write. I hope blogger does not go down while I am writing because lately it has been misbehaving. I have to wake Maya up for a Dr appointment. Wake Vijay up because he has summer school. what to have for breakfast and if today is going to be a good day.

I SAID: Maya you should read the comments on your last poem. you are talented and can write really well.

I WANT TO: Have my back fixed, be able to go to the beach, just watch the waves, bask in the moon light under the starry skies. I want to learn to dance and I want to go on a vacation with "J". I also want less squabbles and more fun.

I WISH: There was peace in this world. Most illnesses to be eradicated, there was no poverty and also I wish my mother was alive. I wish she could see my children, she would be proud of them. I wish I had told my mom that I loved her and I wish I was a better child and had not given her too many problems. I wish I could go into space , I wish "J" and me will have less arguments.

I WONDER: What the world would be like 50yrs from now. Will people not step out and just sit in front of their computers, maybe it will be just hanging around their necks . There is so many advances in Technology that sometimes it scares me. I wonder if people will be taking vacations into space. I wonder what will happen to my family when I die. I wonder if I am a good parent, I wonder if I am doing things right. I wonder when I will be well. I wonder if the world will ever be without war and terror.

I REGRET: Many things in life. I regret not pursuing my education further, I regret working when my children were little, regret not spending too much time with them. Regret not telling my mother I loved her or even A thank you. I took her for granted and thought she would be with me always. I regret saying unkind things to "J". I regret making him sad. I regret not taking better care of my back . I really have a lot of regrets. But I want to make every day a better one so I don't end up having a life of regrets.

I HEAR: The birds chirping in my back yard. The sound of a plane in the distance. People talking about the war and terrorists. I hear things that I don't want to hear. I hear music in my ears.

I AM: A wife, a mother of two. only 5ft tall. I am simple, quiet at times , don't have a lot of friends. love to have fun and enjoy the simple things in life. I am what I am.

I DANCE: Actually I don't know how to dance. If I get up on to the dance floor I just do my thing. I think dancing is a lot of fun. I am going to learn to dance. Once I got up on the table in our hotel room in vegas and danced. The kids thought I had a little bit too much wine. I was really pretending so as to make them laugh.

I SING: Sometimes when no one is around. I don't sing in the shower. I like to sing hindi songs, a lot of romantic and sad songs, sometimes spiritual ones. I dont sing in front of my family.

I CRY: when I am sad and sometimes when I am happy. Most times I cry when I have arguments with "J". I cried when my parents died and when my kids went off to school. I think I cry quite a bit, may be to fill a pond, but if you ask "J" he may say it is more of an ocean.

I AM NOT: always what people think. I try to hide my feelings. is very emotional or get hurt easily. I trust too many people. I am a pretty much of a private person. I think its only since I started blogging have I exposed so much of me. I am for most part what you see. I try to do what is right and fair.

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: A home cooked meal for my family. I can make a sweater or a scarf either knitted or crochet. I can sew a simple garment. I like to paint and make simple stuff.

I WRITE: When I am happy and I write when I am sad. Most of my emotions are in my poems. it is straight from my heart. I think writing relaxes me and i am able to expose my feelings. When I have no one to talk to I write. Actually I like writing a lot.

I CONFUSE: people with my sense of direction. I dont know which direction North, south, East or West is. I confuse "J" with stupid questions sometimes.

I NEED: peace of mind. I need to get my back well. I need to stop arguing , i need to slow down and smell the flowers. I need to take a trip to India . Have not visited since 1995. I need to buy "J" a birthday present. His birthday is on Sept 1st. I need to go to the gym and I need to eat more healthy. looks like I am very needy dont I?

I think I have said enough about Me. I need to tag a few others so they can write about themselves. I tag Scribblez, Neers, Faith, Fresh ink, Passerby, The preacher ( I like to know what the preacher has to say) And the teacher Hip grandmom. Rajbir , Neihal, and Jhantu.