Wednesday, October 15, 2008


I see the smoke rising behind my neighbors house.
WIND & FIRE Living in California we have accepted the fact that every year in October we have really bad Santa Ana winds and this sparks the fires.It is still very frightening, I live in Simi Valley and the fires were behind us and in front of us but thankfully not upon us.We were given two voluntary evacuations and were told to be ready in case we had to leave.Take what is important to you we were told. I looked around my house there were so many things but what was important to me was my photo albums, videos of the children and my laptop.Oh! and not forgetting my the winds have died down a little and the fires are dwindling down.If you were told to leave your home what would you take?

My Banana plants


Monday, October 13, 2008


In one of my earlier posts I had written about Anjali and her baby,I am sorry to say the baby expired and I went to the funeral on Saturday.It really broke my heart, I had become very close to the baby and prayed really hard for him to live and also for his mother. I think sometimes we are selfish in our prayers.I knew the baby was ill and he was in pain and the chances that he will be completely well were slim but I still wanted him to live, so that I could see him and give him tons of kisses,fuss over him and carry him,not thinking for a moment that it was a very selfish thought.but I also wanted him to live because I knew how much Anjali really wanted this baby and how much he meant to her.She had prayed so hard for this child and after having two miscarriages he was born.He was three months old on the day he passed away ,he never got to go home from the hospital.I wonder what was God's reason.
I wanted to share this poem I wrote for him

My precious baby Samuel.

You stole my heart
from the very start.
I looked into your eyes
and knew you were meant to be.
I prayed everyday that God would let you stay
To make you well to come home one day.

I picked you up and held you close
Your heart beat next to mine
I wished I could give you part of me to make you well
I wished I could have erased all your pain.

God had his reasons,
I don't know why
He let you stay here, just for a little while.

My comfort and solace
is knowing that you are free from pain
Up above in Heaven

and smiling down at me.

I love you baby Samuel


Tuesday, October 07, 2008


6 die in family murder-suicide in Los Angeles
By CHRISTINA HOAG – 1 hour ago

LOS ANGELES (AP) — The only hints of trouble in the big beige house on Como Lane were the newspapers in the driveway and the lack of any activity behind the front door.

But when police summoned by worried friends of the residents got inside Monday, they found a horror — six members of a family fatally shot in a murder-suicide committed by an unemployed father in financial crisis.

The body of 45-year-old Karthik Rajaram, a gun clutched in one hand, was found by officers who followed a trail of carnage through the home in a gated community in the Porter Ranch area of the San Fernando Valley.

His victims, most slain in their beds, were his wife, three sons and his mother-in-law.

"Absolute devastation," Deputy Chief Michel Moore told reporters outside the home.

Investigators quickly found two suicide letters and a will, and determined that Rajaram held a master's degree and once worked for PricewaterhouseCoopers, a major accounting firm, and for Sony Pictures.

But he had been unemployed for several months and his finances had reached a crisis point in recent weeks, Moore said.

"This is a perfect American family behind me that has absolutely been destroyed, apparently because of a man who just got stuck in a rabbit hole, if you will, of absolute despair," Moore said. "It is critical to step up and recognize we are in some pretty troubled times."

Rajaram wrote in his suicide letter that he felt he had two options — to kill himself or to kill himself and his family — and decided the second option was more honorable, Moore said. The gun was purchased Sept. 16.

I was very sad and disturbed after hearing this news,this is another neighborhood close to my home.I personally don't know if I should feel sorry for Rajaram or not.I don't think we can take someone elses life.he was still young and could have worked again and made up the loss ,I don't know what made him do what he did, is it not having the money he had ,there were so many options out there than killing themselves,it is really sad.Do you think Money is the root of all evil? Do you think we have the right to take the lives of our childen?