ACROSS THE MILES

I FEEL SO SAD

In one of my earlier posts I had written about Anjali and her baby,I am sorry to say the baby expired and I went to the funeral on Saturday.It really broke my heart, I had become very close to the baby and prayed really hard for him to live and also for his mother. I think sometimes we are selfish in our prayers.I knew the baby was ill and he was in pain and the chances that he will be completely well were slim but I still wanted him to live, so that I could see him and give him tons of kisses,fuss over him and carry him,not thinking for a moment that it was a very selfish thought.but I also wanted him to live because I knew how much Anjali really wanted this baby and how much he meant to her.She had prayed so hard for this child and after having two miscarriages he was born.He was three months old on the day he passed away ,he never got to go home from the hospital.I wonder what was God's reason.
I wanted to share this poem I wrote for him

My precious baby Samuel.

You stole my heart
from the very start.
I looked into your eyes
and knew you were meant to be.
I prayed everyday that God would let you stay
To make you well to come home one day.

I picked you up and held you close
Your heart beat next to mine
I wished I could give you part of me to make you well
I wished I could have erased all your pain.

God had his reasons,
I don't know why
He let you stay here, just for a little while.

My comfort and solace
is knowing that you are free from pain
Up above in Heaven
and smiling down at me.
I love you baby Samuel