"Doctor,Doctor"

Today I had to go to the doctor.Its a long trip there,its 8am I enter the office thinking I am the first one there,but there are three patients ahead of me.I sign in and sit down.I watch TV ,read some magazines and wait.A few more patients trickle in,I am getting impatient,I look at the secretary ,she smiles, I smile back not wanting to be rude.I look around the office and amidst the pictures on the walls and the plants, I see faces.Most of them are young with work injuries. I begin to wonder about the person behind the face.Before they were injured each person led normal lives .All of them went to work each day, looked after their families, now its different, you can see the pain and lonliness in their faces,they have to depend on someone to help them ,I am sure they dont like being in the doctors office, but yet they come, in the hope that they will get better and they can live the rest of their lives as best they can. I wait and I wait ,its 9am and its not my turn yet,I feel my
heart beating fast,I am in a lot of pain ,I want to leave but I see a patient sitting next to me who was there before me,she smiles and says" you will be called soon maybe the person ahead of you had a lot of problems."I look at her and she is calm,I begin to feel better and think about other people who are worse off than me. Behind every face is a story .

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"Alone............"

The house is quiet, vijay has returned to his dorm after spring break.It was nice when he was here. The lights were on in every room,T.V.blaring and music in the garage. dirty dishes and unmade bed. I miss those days. Now it is quiet, too quiet ,No music no noise.No yelling for vijay to pick up his clothes. I miss him but he wil be home again on the weekend, and there will be music playing, TV on loud ,dirty dishes and I will be yelling at him to pick up his clothes. and it will be like he never left. untill the weekend is over and he will leave again and then I will be Alone.............

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"DECISIONS, Decisions and more Decisions." So help me God."

Vijay needs a new dresser in his room, I decided that if we were going to buy a dresser ,we may as well buy a nightstand and a bed. So my husband Joe and I set out to look at some furniture, I wish I had not gone because it did not end well,we can never agree on any thing.First whether to buy a queen or full sized bed. I thought we should buy a queen bed since we already have a queen mattress,but Joe insisted we buy a full size bed because the room was too small,so I agreed because he was right ,the room was too small.Then came the style...Mission or Sleigh, cherry or Oak ,so many decisions to make.I like cherry because it has this rich color.Joe agreed ,even though he insisted the sleigh bed would look too big in his room. we finally agreed on the style and the size of the bed. Then came the price. It was too expensive,,Joe figured it was going to be atleast over $1000 dollars when all he needed was a dresser . I thought it was not too expensive as it was real wood and would look nice. Finally we decided we should think about it some more because we would still need a new mattress to fit the full bed as we currently have a queen size mattress.By this time my head was spinning,i could not make another decision or argue anymore,so we decided to leave. On the way home more decisions."what would you like to eat,indian food or chicken.I said Indian food maybe,i know joe does not like an indian buffet,he said maybe some chicken atleast it is less carbs. My back was in a spasm,my head was spinning i could not make up my mind. I could not make a simple stupid decision on what to eat,so we came home. I hope to god I dont ever have to make another decision today or Im going to go crazy. Anyway Im glad that i did not have to make a decision .Maybe we can leave some for another day..........

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STARRY NIGHTS I awaken,the room is well light from the light of the silvery moon.As I lay in bed I can see the moon through the glass windows.It is really beautiful. It is very quiet ,i walk up to the window and look up at the sky and i see millions of stars every where,it is a clear night. I begin to wonder about the Universe and its creator.Sometimes I dont understand everything about the universe.I just want to go up in space and look down at the earth and see formyself ,thi s big ball that we call Earth. Ever since I was a little child the sky always interested me.I longed to know more about the planets.,wanted to know about the moon and the sun. The past month I have not been able to see the stars because of the rain,even the moonlight is clouded in the mist.Everything is dark outside.I stand by the window and look out,all I see is darkness everywhere.I wait for those starry,starry nights.

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